I remember sitting alone outside at the Scholarship Dinner in 8th grade. Everybody was enjoying themselves at the dance while I was by my lone self reflecting, being nostalgic and regretful. Although my visage showed a peaceful and serene expression, inside...I was truly dying. I wasn't crying, but when she found me and asked if I was, the tears just started coming out. They wouldn't stop pouring, and I broke down. I remember feeling so embarrassed and stupid for crying 'cause a bunch of people were crowding around me, asking what the matter was. I'm just scared I'll be back at that place.

Pandumb

So I'm not the ONLY one who feels imprisoned behind IH bars! That's sad. Not gonna lie, sometimes this atmosphere/environment can chain me down. Of course, the trees are nice. The Nature is enough for me to take a breather out of from time to time. Which explains why traveling from class to class is something I would/occasionally still do anticipate every day, even if it takes approximately 3 minutes to get from one destination to another. Even up until now, the caged bird emotions remain in subtle existence. The only thing I look forward to in PreCal nowadays is staring out the window to watch the world from up above. Luckily, I sit in the front corner so I catch a fair view. But every chance or even glimpse I get of the outside world, I yearn to be out THERE, not within the confines of in HERE. Well, at least I know I'm not alone on my sentiments. But isn't it a bad thing if you know other people feel boxed in in a place where education should be liberating?

Constant Comparison, I know...it's unhealthy.

I know a lot of people standardize intelligence (common sense, wisdom, etc.). But it's difficult for me to comprehend things in such swiftness. I'm as slow a a snail when it comes to looking at the big picture or even the specific details. I can't connect the dots as excellently as a lot of people and I sometimes even lose memory of the significance of the dots themselves. I feel my brain isn't the sharpest tool in the shed, and the mere fact that I have been dropped as an acquaintance or "friend" for that reason tugs at my self-esteem and puts me down. It brings me to question my worth here on Earth.

FunnyFaceBeauty

FunnyFaceBeauty is giving away the items pictured in the photo above. Featured is a make up bag from Plaid Poni Designs, Urban Decay's 'Naked Palette' (featuring 12 neutral eyeshadows, 2 eyeliners, and a mini bottle of primer lotion), M.A.C. lipsticks and lip gloss, M.A.C. eyeshadow, M.A.C. brow pencil, M.A.C. nail polish, and Forever 21 nail files.

Contest ends October 10 and is open internationally!

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Guilty Pleasure

I'd have to say a guilty pleasure of mine is chocolate. Having a sweet tooth in general is one of my biggest vices 'cause often times my taste buds just crave for that sugar! I need to be more on the look out to keep my health and fitness in shape or else I'm bound to get Diabetes sooner or later. I should know better 'cause I'm aware of my dad's condition. And who knows, I have the potential to inherit that extra glucose in my blood. But of course, out of all the sweets...chocolate is MY best friend. I just need to practice some disciplinary skills 'cause my sweet tooth is in need of some taming!

MakeUpNonsense Giveaway

MakeUpNonsense is hosting a giveaway to commemorate her achievement of 50 followers! Click the image above to enter. :)

Korean Pop

Kpop ain't the same no more. I've drifted apart from the music scene ever since I realized the focus was shifting from 'this' concept to another. Personally, I prefer the concept the Kpop Industry was aiming for in the past. Nowadays it seems to be about being provocative and sexually appealing. I miss the cutesy wootsy image. Then again, the whole idea of creating images to portray can come off as close minded. For now, I'm sticking to those throwbacks.